I've heard of writer's block. I was worried I may experience early on-set blogger block. Chalk it up to a single remark made by someone who read my last post about dreams. "What's the point?" To begin with, I was feeling a little unsure about that piece. Add to that, I was not expecting that sort of a reaction. I was unprepared to hear a churlish remark from someone I liked. It was an emotional ambush and I lost.
I had asked this person to read my blog because I was feeling proud of myself. In fact, earlier that day I had been feeling as happy as I remember feeling in a long time. It was a combination of the lightness of youth, the exhilaration of being plugged in to the world and the satisfaction of being appreciated. And I liked it!
For as much as I wanted to dismiss the comment, I thought about it as I drove home. I tossed and turned that night mulling it over. I woke up the next morning feeling like maybe I didn't have anything worthwhile to contribute after all.
This blog is important to me. It may not ever be read by tons of people. It may not be profound. So what if it doesn't ever provide me a segue into a much needed income? I will continue to write it because it makes me feel good. Somewhere along the line I heard a saying, "...don't act small because of the way they treat you when you act big...". I probably mutilated that quote, but its meaning is clear and I need to learn from it.
I have a lot to say and the experience to back it up. Until you hear a little bit more from me, don't underestimate yourself or anyone else. It's still wonderful to be surprised.
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